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i didnt know that someone special to me reads my blog until today, so it gave me a little incentive to start actually updating a little. school's been going good...ive got all A's and B's. something i couldn't even accomplish in high school. so yeah.

in other more important news, i'm a total bitch. yes, i know you already knew this, but im serious. i don't know why i treat people the way i do sometimes. i don't know why i freak out all the time...and yell and scream little girl. it's really quite stupid, but i don't know how to control it. i absolutely HATE being around people now...when i used to thrive on it. i find myself only wanting to be in the presence of adam and kristen, and when other people are around, i get pissy...i don't know why. partying used to be my favorite past time, but i hate it now. i just like being around people. don't get me wrong, i still like getting fucked up (unfortunately), just not with anyone except the aforementioned persons. i don't get it. and i haven't been this angry of a person since high school. i find myself being pissed off for absolutely no fucking reason. i'm really fucking sick of it. i feel like i'm about to lose the love of my life, because i can't control my anger...and that's the last thing in the world i would EVER want. but it's going to happen if i can't learn to control myself. god, i just feel like i have this huge weight on my chest all the time...so much shit to deal with, so many responsibilities...when does life get easier?? when will i be able to talk to someone, and maybe relieve some of this pressure?
27th-Sep-2006 04:28 pm - i see the flesh and it smells fresh
How did it start?
Well, I dont know.
I just feel the craving.
I see the flesh and it smells fresh.
And it's just there for the taking.
These little girls they make me feel so god damn
exhilarated.
I feel them up, I can't give it up.
The pain that I'm just erasing.
I tell my lies and I despise.
Every second I'm with you.
So I run away and you still stay.
So what the fuck is with you.

Your feelings I can't help but rape them.
I'm sorry I don't feel the same.
My heart inside is constantly hating.
I'm sorry I just throw you away.

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold?
I dont know why it hurts me.
All I wanna do is get with you.
And make the pain go away.
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me.
Why do I have this torment?
All I want to do is fuck it away.

I tell my lies and I despise.
Every second I'm with you.
So I run away and you still stay.
So what the fuck is with you.

Your feelings I can't help but rape them.
I'm sorry I don't feel the same.
My heart inside is constantly hating.
I'm sorry I just throw you away.

I just throw you away.
I just throw you away.
I just throw you away.
I just throw you away.
15th-Jan-2006 12:49 pm(no subject)
drummer
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable,like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken Up, Deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all thats left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside

Cuz I can't breathe
No I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, Deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No I don't cry, on the outside anymore
(anymore)

Here I am, Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, Deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry (I cry)
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am Once again
(I'm torn) I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, Deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
10th-Jan-2006 04:06 pm(no subject)
Leave your name in a comment, and, in fruitful appreciation, i will:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written
10th-Jan-2006 12:56 pm(no subject)
Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now!

"predictable"//good charlotte
22nd-Dec-2005 12:07 am(no subject)
drummer

Oh Great Cthulhu!

I have been an extremely diligent devotee this year.

In December, I legally changed my name to Randolph Carter (-40 points). In May, I rammed a ship into you (sorry Cthulhu!) (-1000 points). In February, I prepared an ocean voyage to R'lyeh (200 points). In July, I rescued [info]luckiee421 from being sacrificed (-200 points). In April, I bombed a cultist gathering (-100 points). Yesterday, I defiled the grave of that traitor, Lovecraft (90 points).

In short, I have been very bad (-1050 points) and deserve to have my body used as a host for one of your servitors.


Your humble and obedient servant,
oohsocontagious


Submit your own plea to Cthulhu!

Name some friends or leave them blank and let me look them up myself:
13th-Dec-2005 09:11 pm - haha
The Twelve Days of Christmas
for oohsocontagious:
Day #Who?What they got you
1stdeadherostreeta strap-on
2ndhonkytonkisdeadA forty pronged whip for lashing all of your friends
3rdvile_dreamera big, sloppy kiss
4ththepunkspunka leather blindfold and a motel key
5thhonkytonkisdeadA reverse strip tease
6thvile_dreamera keg of lube
7thvile_dreamera gigantic penis in your yard, drawn in flaming gasoline
8thdeadherostreeta tray of lewd ice cubes
9thpurplexauraA blog for all of your sexual writings
10thvile_dreamera fitted corset made of cling wrap
11thdeadherostreeta feather and a magnum of champagne
12thvile_dreamera tube of strawberry-flavoured lube, laced with epoxy
Take this Quiz at QuizUniverse.com
( or, take the 'clean' version at QuizGalaxy.com )
11th-Dec-2005 10:45 pm - i'll kill yo' baby mamma.
1. What time did you get up this morning? 10:45am

2. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds, cause they're forever.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Saw II

4. What is your favorite TV show? Nip/Tuck

6. What is your middle name? Elise

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican

8. What food do you dislike? Sushi

9. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Sugarcult "Start Static"

10. What type of car do you drive? 2oo5 Nissan Altima

11. Favorite sandwich? Philly Cheese Steak

12. What characteristic grosses you out? Huge balls...

13. Favorite item of clothing? Level 27 Hoodie

14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would it be? Australia

15. What color is your bathroom? uhm...tile..or something....oh oh! toilet color

16. Favorite brand of clothing? Level 27

17. Where would you retire to? So Cal. baby!

18. Favorite time of the day? Midnight

19. What was your most memorable birthday? 18th with Tiffany and Carol! then all my friends!!!! GETTIN' FUCKIN' DRUNK AND GOIN TO THE MALL.

20. Where were you born? Baytown, TX

21. Favorite sport to watch? Nascar and Football

22. Who do you least expect to send this back? Your mom.

23. Person you expect to send it back first? Uhm...Your mom.

24. What fabric detergent do you use? Melaluca. or something

25. Coke or Pepsi? Liquor. bitch.

26. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Night...bitch.

27. What is your shoe size? 8

28. Do you have any pets? 3 cats and a boyfriend.

30. What did you want to be when you were little? A baseball player...dude, i dont know.


31. MY FAVORITE WORD/PHRASE IS: "BITCH."
25th-Nov-2005 07:32 pm(no subject)
Candy Cigarettes

You're a total badass, but you don't taste very good.
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